Off to Church …

I grew up Catholic … going to church with my Mom and Nanny on Saturday night, then going with my Nanny and Pa on Sunday morning; catholic school; making all my sacraments … but over the years I pulled away from the church.  It wasn’t a good fit for me, I didn’t agree with a lot of their beliefs.  Over the last little bit, I’ve found myself missing the church.  I still don’t agree with some of their ideas, but as I’ve gotten older, I’ve realized that I don’t have to agree with everything – even though some people within the church would have one believe otherwise.

On Sunday, I felt the pull to go to church.  My brain clearly knew what my soul needed, so off I went.

I settled in moments before church began (because, you know, why on earth would I have been early) and started flipping through the missal to find the information for February 26 (which, in case you don’t go to church, is the 8th Sunday in Ordinary time).

Not every missal is exactly the same, the one thing I have noticed about the ones at the church I was attending is that there is almost a gospel at the beginning, which I found to be quite interesting. So interesting in fact, that I took a picture, so I could read it again.

I’m going to share part of it with you:

Anxiety can be debilitating.  Fear can not only hold our mind hostage, but can manifest itself through all sorts of physical symptoms.  In today’s readings – especially in the gospel – God reveals that he wants humanity to be free from the shackles of fear that can keep us from experiencing the fullness of life.
 
In the gospel, just before Jesus implores his listeners not to worry, he states that we cannot serve two masters  Who is Jesus referring to?  The one master is God, but who is the other?  Evil?  Satan?  In a way yes, but in another way, Jesus may be referring to a more specific manifestation of evil.  Evil can hold our hopes, fears and expectations hostage by crippling us with anxiety. Instead of looking towards God, we can look to fear.  We cannot therefore serve God, who is love, and evil, which brings despair and uncertainty.  The other master opposed to God is one of ill will and misery. 
In the first reading, God reassures Zion’s people.  They have not been abandoned to evil.  God’s love is beyond worldly limits and therefore cannot be depleted.
 
In today’s world, the medial, financial concerns, success all give reason to worry.  Some worrying is normal.  However, to let anxiety master us, is to give up hope that God is greater than all worldly obstacles.
 
Andrew Hume, Toronto ON

Ok … so I shared the whole thing.  It’s interesting though, isn’t it??  I like when I can actual relate to something the church is talking about.  Anxiety is debilitating, the media does make me worry because some days, I can’t help but watch 6 different news shows and try to stay up to date on social media.

And reading this, in church, set off my waterworks, because really, knowing that I have been reassured, makes me cry.

The service continued, and we got to the second reading.  It was from the book of Matthew and one line stood out to me, one line that again sent me into tears.

So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.

I spend a lot of time worrying about yesterday, today, and tomorrow.  I worry about things that I can’t change, things that I did or said 20 years ago.  But what I need to keep reminding myself, is that I can’t change what happened then and it makes no difference to my life today.  

There is enough sorrow in the world to keep me worrying for the rest of my time on earth, but do I need to keep worrying?  I don’t.

I am grateful to body and soul for knowing what I needed on Sunday.  It was a good reminder that you can go home again.


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